and you need to chill lah girl, stop working so hard. go ask your sister for money. hahaha
much more mature, much more hotter now uh. seriously, I speak the truth
hello shahul, its been a while since we met up uh. back then you were still into the whole hip-hop artiste thing and then boom, now its the whole electronica thing. boy have you changed, you see what you black people are capable of!?
nice sitting down for a cup of coffee and hearing how your life has got on over these 'lost years'. all the shite we have both went thru. always great fun with a black man around.
I like your music btw. next time I'll see you bring down the roof at MSG with DaftPunk. Then I'll tell the world that I know Shahul Akbar. like woah
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deployment stint coming to an end and our HELL MONTH would begin soon. would possibly be the toughest month I would have to go through in army. this is where all the crucial activities would take place in.
route marches, river crossings, intensive PT, range, field camps, more conventional shite.
not that we haven been through bad times before, but once you think its over, something bigger comes along to constantly remind you that theres always a greater evil out there.
and that has got to suck.
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when the going gets tough, i think about the good times to come and sometimes, only sometimes it makes me feel better. Sometimes when we are cold, wet and dirty with muck all over and a night gale courses through chilling our bones, I think about the weirdest stuff.
like sometimes in the peace of night you just sit down, look at the stars, the moon, the night sky, the trees, the tranquil surroundings and even the little ant on the ground. you think about the finer things in life. how the world would be without Lust, Gluttony, Greed, Sloth, Wrath, Envy and Pride. yeah, the seven deadly sins. no worries about money, relationship and other heartbreaking matters.
I thought about how lonely I was. the feeling of having someone in your arms, the raw passion. how an embrace with a loved one felt like a moment of eternity, the exhilaration of loving and being loved back. all the visions and memories flashed in my mind. the different women who've impacted my life. the people whom I've hurt and the ones who have in turn hurt me. how I gave up one love for another and how wrong it turned out resulting in three broken hearts at the end of it. i'm being overwhelmed right now, its so. asphyxiating. so constricting.
I don't think someone like me would be fit to talk about Love when i don't even know what it is to begin with. I'm always, or always seemed' to be the one dispensing sagely advice, but hopeless when it comes to matters of my own heart. many times when its all one-way. I seem to be heading down the wrong direction.
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light hearted stuff. I've come across what could possibly be the best drawn ladybug ever on the world wide web.
its like so well drawn and with MSN somemore. please lah, dear friend lappie. You clearly belong in an alternate universe.
lets see uh;
how awesome is that. I offer 200 bucks for any person who can better that. hahaha
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