the past 5 days were difficult. almost as if they were the longest five days of my life. to say the least. standing at a static position for 12 hours with load everyday can kill. both physically and mentally challenging. time slowed to a crawl and the effect it had on my mind was excruciating. i'm just glad I got through it all. why do i get all the shite' shifts when everyone else doesn't uhh. if it doesn't kill you, it really does make you stronger. truly.
I've never been one to procrastinate. so its always me with this WORK HARD, PLAY LATER mentality. didn't exactly work out as well as I would have wanted it to. Dove in enthusiastically armed with the knowledge that it would be tough and emerged 5 days later with a complete redefinition of the word TOUGH. never wanna go thru it again i hope.
what an experience.
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I guess time really does fly when we are preoccupied with something and in the blink of an eye its already been almost 10 months since I made the transition from civilian to soldier. kinda surreal.
I remember the day when Qian sent me off. the breakfast at KAP's Mac. It did mean a lot to me back then. Both the day and the girl, haha. the 14 pieces of napkins for each single day of my confinement. mood was pretty sombre, serious and the air was thick with anticipation. I didn't know what else to say to her. But big bold words in red like WORRY, FEAR & HOPE flashed across my mind. Walked out to the main road for a cab down to Pasir Ris where I was due to report for enlistment and meet up with the father. ran into YY & Kevin while on the way there. didn't talk much, wasn't in the mood to communicate. boarded the cab, somehow i managed to blurt out that all important three words before the door closed. but it really didn't matter anymore at that moment, does it. you turned around and headed for the direction of the clinic. it was all over.
events from that day still replays itself in my mind from time to time.
and I tell myself how silly I was back then. hahaha, yeah
now I recollect and laugh about it. you probably won't be reading this I know, but years from now I would read my own archives from time to time and go like "hey, events from the day I enlisted into the army!"
and it would all come flowing back.
maybe then, i'll smile.
and let that smile be _____
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