somehow i think that my blog entries are getting really bland. i either whine or moan about how army is ruining me week in and week out or i complain about how weak I am by getting injured all the time. someone really needs to shut me up or I'll go on and on and eventually implode.
it sucks to feel weak. its a feeling i detest. weakness is vulnerability in a person(makes all the sense in the world). used to be of the mentality that I'm this little guy who's really hard to kill and i take punishment, dish it back double and keep on coming back for more. the daily trainings and the fatigue resulting from it proved me wrong. brings you right back down to Earth. am i really pushing myself too hard. or perhaps I'm not as mentally or physically able as i thought i was/am. one thing's certain though; I'm not half the man i used to be(blatant Beatles' classic ripoff)
been feeling rather... lightweight i shall say, of late. nothing's on my mind. i feel strangely empty. its like a boundless expanse up there where nothing is going on and every thing's stationary. no pressing concerns, no relationship matters, no social life, no thought provoking acts, no emo and dark times to reflect, dwell and ponder upon. it is liberating in a sense, but sometimes i get the feeling that I'm losing my senses and emptying my brain juice.
yeah, i hate the way I'm describing it because its grossly inadequate i know. but the language seemed to have forsaken me. in Jayina's words, I've been ARMYFIED.
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avenged sevenfold released their 4th album(f*cking finally, after 4 years) and i was rather disappointed to say the least. knew that their sound's bound to change somehow, but never actually thought/expected that they would sound like some alternative rock band with mild metal elements in their work now. some good tracks in there though. I'll probably get over the initial disappointment la. one of my favorite bands afterall.
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