the song's ringing in my ears. been on repeat for over and over.
yes people, she's gone already. but I'm okay (for those who might be concerned about my mental health). I've prepared myself for the day, the hour and the moment. and came it did.
it hit me just like that. BANG. and then its over. true to The Beatles, I'm not half the man I used to be. or something like that lah. HAHAHA. sometimes i amaze myself simply by being able to laugh at myself in the most dire of scenarios. thats me. why uh?
its been an awesome 6 months. chock full of drama, both pain and pleasure. I've learnt and changed so much. It's almost like I've reached that imaginary mental crossroad between CHILD and ADULT and made my choice.
The 3 page letter I wrote to her was my most beautiful work so far(then again, self-praise is no praise). I don't think I'll ever play Romeo and write another girl some emo-sensical HOW-IT-ALL-STARTED-AND-ENDED letter ever again. totally gut-wrenching and excruciating on the heart.
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All my bags are packed
Im ready to go
Im standin here outside your door
I hate to wake you up to say goodbye
But the dawn is breakin
Its early morn
The taxis waitin
Hes blowin his horn
Already Im so lonesome
I could die
So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that youll wait for me
Hold me like youll never let me go
cause Im leavin on a jet plane
Dont know when Ill be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go
Theres so many times Ive let you down
So many times Ive played around
I tell you now, they dont mean a thing
Evry place I go, Ill think of you
Evry song I sing, Ill sing for you
When I come back, Ill bring your wedding ring
So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that youll wait for me
Hold me like youll never let me go
cause Im leavin on a jet plane
Dont know when Ill be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go
Now the time has come to leave you
One more time
Let me kiss you
Then close your eyes
Ill be on my way
Dream about the days to come
When I wont have to leave alone
About the times, I wont have to say
Oh, kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that youll wait for me
Hold me like youll never let me go
cause Im leavin on a jet plane
Dont know when Ill be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go
But, Im leavin on a jet plane
Dont know when Ill be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go
2:42 PM