so many things going through. flooding through perhaps.
i dunno where im going now. feeling so empty
perhaps its all thats happening now. its all having an effect on me.
all's going down. that terrible sinking feeling.
i finally know whats going through your mind. when you sing the song of the stars.
you feel forsaken. like its all gone bad. and you dont know how or why.
saint. oh beautiful edelweiss. saintly
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grounded by alot of computer issues. and life problems.
nobody's gonna feel my pain. so i shall laugh about it.
eth's crusty trusty keyboard died on me today. bought a new black brandless one.
serving me pretty well.
removed the troublemaking 9800 radeon AGP card.
the thing about computers is that. you think you know so much. you think you know the world. IT savvy and all. something crops up and hurts real bad. and you cant fix it.
theres the feeling of despair and loss. and you realise theres alot more to IT.
im never gonna do IT in my future. come to me oh MASS MEDIA or PSYCHOLOGY.
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had this mind intellectual talk with Hakim again.
always someone who can think on teh same frequency and level. im glad that perhaps. someone can feel what im going through.
or perhaps on an even higher scale or level.
thanks for all the advice man. appreciate it.
actually have alot to blog. but writer's block setting in.
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does it mean when you are involved in a relationship now
that you are marrying that person 10 years from now?
or izzit that a relationship now's a stop and end to your social life.
whoever said it was wrong to talk to or make female frens when you are attached.
or vice-versa.
people are getting quaint. shallow. superficial. fake.
marriage's a union of a couple genuinely in love. physically and mentally.
ill like someone for who that person is. and not for who shes not. or trying to be.
nobody said im a know-it-all. im stil learning about the game of life.
perhaps you should open Life's textbook and start too.
to nobody in particular. aimed at shallow minded airheads.
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lappie. you are smart and not dumb.
know this. and you can think.
dont shut yourself out.
be true to yourself and others.
there would always be a listening ear for you. (:
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11:05 PM