WooOt!!.. waited so long fer this mucho needed stretch of holidays uhh!!.. Tis been like 6-7 weeks of hard school life and especially so since the harsh reality set in that im in Year 2 now and the workload and stuffs gonna increase multifold.. Weeks of sch feels like weekds of HELL..add torture to that mixture..
Ah yeah..after blabbering all abt sch n stuffs.. see my dear frens..im like really stressed n burnt out.. real apologetic to the pple who have felt my distasteful wrath.. its like..SiGhh..im in a bad state lar.. juggling my life in bits n pieces now and me being the perfectionisto wud really HATE failing anyone and anything i have laid my responsibility on.. so the thought of all these stuff to-do gettin cramped into that tiny nutmeg sized processor of mine has sometimes overwhelmed me..
May have to quit some stuffs here n there and i know of the backlash..but in the end..its ME,my life..not the backalsh n the voices behind me that wud get to me..Eil was telling me to just get in there..make it quick..n get out of it..rather than languishing in self pity and further push myself with responsibilities i CANNOT handle already..
Sometimes thinkin that most pple wud know me as a responsible person of a taskhandler and i have pple who work this against me.. when i fail them and plunge into self-reproach mode..they take it upon themselves to 'remind' me of my failure n yeah..ya noe lar..rub salt into the wound n stuffs.. commenting how really " irresponsible n selfish" i am.. as if i myself didnt know that.. SiGHhh..doesnt pay being nice really..that's why i stopped being "REAL NICE" some time ago uhh..but maybe a small fragment of my niceness stil lingers arnd? ..hahhha
Out with Eil' at TP yesterday and yeah..i thought i was being pretty mucho a bore..cos didnt really make her laugh n crack ya noe..ahhha.. eyes were on her pink hairband for the whole time.. anticipating her guard to drop so i can pull it off n expose her self described " ugly frinch" ..haha..but siGhh..didnt get the chance to.. partly becos i didnt wanna risk turning red all over..*AhhERmmm*... n ah yea.. the PINK Guava juice..darnn..made me do the rounds(well..maybe just once..) when i got home.. DearieE.. im NOT gonna drink that again.. nothing to do with PINK though.. HeY!..im not a PINK Basher nia! :P :P :P
Bought me new D500 today n stil a liL cranky with it..haah..but tis a good phone lar..gonna last me for quite some time.. (i hope?)..hahhaha...
TooTss...
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