Kinda got really emotional just now during the match we played after the drills.Somehow i feel that im really extra sensitive both to other people and even more towards myself.Theres just this unremovable factor of me which would torment me whenever i :
1) Get left out of stuff
2)Know/Hear/Sense that people has arnd me do not get along with me.
Yeah..its really abnormal to other "normal" people whom never or seem to experience this a lot lesser than i do.Sometimes people just dont understand this part of me and this causes the ugly head of humans to rear its ugly head upon.Ironically,this is Insensitivity as compared to Oversensitivity.Could be due to my childhood or my family background which caused me to adapt/develop this kinda loner mindset or lets put things this way,say..er..observant..HmM..nA..Oversuspicion wud be a better word.Gotta change this bad trait of mine as this could take a huge toll mentally on my brain.(perhaps?)..
Received some advice/feedback from Aaron n Glen regarding my performance as i personally think was substandard(ie.Sucked). My confidence really hit rock bottom and i buckled under pressure again from the fast pace of the game.Got into a mini arguement as well as i really felt kinda lost.Got everything resolved after that and i was really glad since i have never liked unpleasanties abound and especially around me.
Realised the fact that i still have a lot to learn and keep up with and er..hope to really improve under Mr Shah..seems like quite teh approachable kinda fella and his drills really seeked to improved all aspects of our game.I really look forward to more training sessions..!!..But then thought of the travelling time n stuff again..BlaM!!..ahha..guess gotta compromise la..nothing is perfect or laid out to your terms in accordance.
Yeah..returned home in a good mood(kinda surprising even myself) even though i was really beat and for teh first time in a VERY..n i really mean VERY amiable mood..N even held a onversation with my mom..I was like.."Hey..u just spoke and maintained a conversation with that woman without flaring and getting worked up.??!"..Well..nothing to celebrate anyways..just thought is was rather noteworthy.Maybe due to the fact that i returned home rather 'revitalised' by the advice offered and teh stuff i learnt.Eh..im pleased with myself today..ER..my temperament maybe ar.. :)
Going out with Eliz tomoro too for some hanging out and coffee at town.Haven seen her for ages since we split amicably few months back and we still get along great and me often begging(okie..i shall use begging..hahah) her to rescue me from sticky solutions regarding the female gender and of cos advice as to how to gain footage in teh fight for Desire.One great fren to have on ur side and yeah..i really treasure our friendship..er..sweetie?(Lies know no boundaries,But alas,it is not to be here)...ahahha...
Wells..gotta head for Dreamland now..Gonna sell off my 7200 tomoro ar rather than making a H-U-G-E loss when the value plunges even deeper into the financial mire.Getting the 6260 i guess.One that functions actually satisfy all my requirements,desires and conditions and teh only drawback being the size..But heck..mentioned earlier..Nothing is perfectly laid out in front of u in accordance to all your earthly desires. The word is Compromise
Sleep well..Im a changed man tomoro..
"ON THE COURT,WE ARE FIGHTERS!!..NOT WIMPS!!..ATTACK!!"
Glen
Another of Glen's famous quotes
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