Noe huh..got lotsa of frens complaining to me that holidays are short lived n bla bla bleah..but i think otherwise la ya noe..cos me thinks that ive been spending this period of holidays really meaningfully in the sense of volunteering,making frens n hanging out with frens which i really enjoy lotsa..so i found out somefiN' new and tt is that time moves at the pace u want it to go when ur living out ur time well and with a full purpose n vision for it..So yeah..no regrets for me this festive n holiday season..but yeah of cos la..the thought of going back to sch does not appeal to the slackerino side of me too..
Picture this uH..
Haha..Im supposed to be in bed now man..but then cant be helped la..cant get to slp due to teh reverse sleeping pattern i steadily developed over the past few days..ie. sleeping at 6am and waking at 4pm..Crap eh..whole day wasted..Sometimes the thing i hate abt holidays is to devlop this kinda sleeping pattern since the experts have proven that unhealthy sleeping habits can severely limit growth..yeah..im referring to VERTICAL growth..get those unhealthy thoughts out.. :) ...haha..
Sch reopening means i wud get to see lotsa frens again n er..yeah..conflicts wud undoubtly arise..new challenges will appear n yeah..it all makes sense aint it..Life's sweets n sours..the ups n down..Gotta say that i learnt lotsa new stuff during the holidays especially when working at the MAD Movement..those guys really thought me lots abt giving,sharing n friendship bonds..kinda having this mental flashback of all the visions of the MAD movement pple slushing thru my brain now..yeah..truly melancholic..brings back the nostalgia..hahhha..NAAaaa...where am i going with that..hahhhayeah..im a kinda sentimental person..
Also learnt to let go of things clinging onto my overzealous brain n heartstrings..ie.relationship matters..experienced ups n downs..n yeah..learnt to take it easier n not take a nosedive into stuff i desire..ahuHhh..will be going slower now n at a pace comfortable to both parties..Kinda feeling really sorry recently for all the embarrassment,pain n hurt i've brought to u thru my blinded words n actions..I noe that u wont be reading this..nor wil it have any effect on matters that have came n go n created this hole within..but i wanna reassure myself that,
im still with u..im still ur silent man..im still holding on..im still waiting..i still want u..
Forgive Me..
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