Saturday, August 23, 2008

you know that much awaited break I've anticipated from blogging. yeah, I've decided to implement it today. because I realized that I really don't lead this life where things(both good and bad) constantly happen to me. My life isn't that happening. A great many other reasons as well.

Maybe its because army has dumbed me down to this extent where I can no longer express myself the way I want to. So its better that I draw a close to something that I can no longer put 100% effort into accomplishing.

Or maybe its because I'm developing this alternate profile of myself where I'm beginning to value privacy more. Like how I've decided that my achievements to the world no longer matter, how important humility is and how small I am compared to what is happening around me.

Time plays a part as well. People may know me as someone who would put heart and soul into something I set out to do. Time constraints are holding me back, maybe its aging for both mind and body and how fast the world has moved on around me. I used to be sure, a definite No. which eventually evolved into something i don't know. i really don't know
Could I be falling?

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There might be a day where I would come back here. Then again, there might not.
But its been quite an amazing journey ain't it.
I look back and there's so much joy and sorrow alike.
Kinda brings a smile to my face.
Thank you for the memories.


5:30 PM

Friday, August 15, 2008

yeah. so 14th of aug was sufi's birthday. 21 years ago to this day was the day our lovely tumbling monkey tot took his first breath and gazed upon this world of wonders, yet fast forward 21 years was the day that half a platoon of guys almost died from overindulgence. hahahahaha!

bunch of us decided to head down to Dbl 0 and one by one dropped like flies. well, except the bikers of cos who were all about pacing their intake. like Anuar, bugger. haha

graveyard was my poison of choice(without a doubt(:) and i can safely say that Dbl O's Graveyard was damn right Horrible with a capital H. the whole time i felt like i was drinking pure undiluted Brand's essence of chicken with nail polish solvent that left a weird aftertaste on my tongue. not like I've tasted nail polish solvent of course, but i think it would have tasted somewhat similar. hell, they even smell the same.

Dbl 0 was filled to the brim with the mats and the like. but that was rather expected. caught few glimpses of SA's people on the dance floor and near the bar counter. funny cos I would never expect them to appear at such places. maybe Zouk does get repetitive after a while I guess.

Attempt to Tequila bomb Justin to LalaLand wasn't that successful afterall cos our beloved sergeant already had a drop too much to land before that. never mind, always another day ah, bro. hahaha. i'll make sure its your birthday then

not to forget Roy and Hafiz's antics as well. collapsing and sleeping on virtually every visible flat surface. walls bar counters, couches and even on the floor. super funny. Ihsan with his robotic dance moves and my most awesome mat-rep 2IC holding true on his promise and tearing up the dance floor with his much-awaited mat-rep dance moves.

Medic was another one. got high on San Cesc's whiskey dry and kept on pestering me regarding why the DJ refuses to play metal. then proceeded to emo satu korner. hahaha
After the whole thing ended, Hassan began the drama with some random minah-rep. fu*king powerful stuff. all of us were in awe. woo

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and I lost my viewty. yeah, sad. some mofo busted my 4 digit lock and took it from my bag
therefore no pictures at all. why lah, God.


11:22 AM

Saturday, August 09, 2008

hectic week this bookout because no many things needed to be settled.

had to rush down to ICA building at like 8am in the morning to collect passport and thank God it was a relatively painless process. I was expecting long queues, angry crowds and disgruntled ICA officials. thankfully none of the above listed were present. I zipped in, tapped a few numbers, signed a few forms and was out in like 20 mins or less. I love how systematic and organized Singapore is sometimes. noticed how i said SOMETIMES? new passport looks awesome, my passport photo looked as if I just killed someone, burnt down his house and then beat the crap out of his mom.

down to vivo again of course and its now something like a second home to me. Causeway Point bored the living daylights out of me at like age 18 and Town was getting awfully repetitive as well. didn't like having to jostle for space alongside pesky schoolkids either. so it was Vivo then since it provided everything. caught Money No Enough 2 simply because it was a local production and i support local cinema. ( HAHAHA. *guffaws* what a lie, actually we watched it simply because there was nothing else in store and Journey to Centre of the Earth bombed at the reviews. or so i heard lah)

but the show was good lah. plenty of tearjerking moments towards the end and my dear girl was futilely trying to disguise the fact that she was tearing up by hiding behind the jacket.
hahaha, cuteness

settled my UOB stuff as well. submitted even more forms, converted my signature and declared a few irrelevant stuff as well. I hate it how bank officials give you a tough time over the counter. and of course the queues as well. and they tend to use those banking jargon on you like as if you were ever in the banking/finance industry. like WTH lah. smoke grenades were being thrown around and luckily for my part, RP firmly equipped me with a mindset(and mouth) specially formulated to counter verbal smoking. no one does it better than me. ask my RP friends.
hahahahaha.

supposed planned drinking session later that night didn't go well resulting in a very annoyed cedric & his army friends. I hate it how things get so indecisive and poorly planned and promises were made but not kept. maybe its because of the fact how army guys like everything to be constructively planned, discussed and carried out. guys who haven been in the army just wouldn't understand that. well, poor sods who have yet to enlist, you'll learn it the hard way. i guess insensitivity played a major part last night too. never mind, as i was telling shandy. Both good and bad times i guess.

I really should curb my temper, but the effort of making a wasted trip down not only for myself but for my friends as well thus giving the impression that I am inept at planning stuff makes my blood boil.

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2 more weeks of jurong island and its back to camp for us poor sods. this week's gonna be much much easier, so in fact I'm looking forward to booking in. a real bummer would be the fact that its national day and I'm gonna miss watching it on TV. as with every army guy, you tend to want to pay careful attention to the marching contingent's drills, marching and the commands given.

its a guy thing.


12:41 PM

Sunday, August 03, 2008

the good: we went to sentosa again
the bad: sentosa was really dry this time round.

seriously, there was nothing to look at even. 'cept for a few minah reps that made my mats all high and bothered. siloso was horrible and everyone on the beach volleyball courts were like. blehhhhhhhh. sgt' hong's pattern lah. hahaha

so much for us wanted to emulate beach.ball.babes sooooooo badly. didn't happen, but we did manage to take a whole shitload of pictures that took half the night to finish sending. i shall not post any of them here since pictures are a huge bandwidth drainer. but check them out on facebook.
i love facebook. I would give my life for facebook. hmmmm, slave.

so much for me putting in extra effort in working out just to look good for the day. i mean uh, its great that you have a trim and toned body already. but putting in extra effort at the gym and then having it not pay off. disappointed man. back to normal gym routine.

shouldn't have went for roy's birthday celebration(sorry dude!)
felt, and looked all bloated after a heavy night of drinking. bad choice, really.
i'm not gonna touch alcohol for quite a while now. back to abstinence.
i managed to go for like. 5 mths without a drink and it all went to waste.
nvm, at least i managed to give Roy the jerry-can treatment. great waste of otherwise perfectly drinkable water.

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i'm actually pondering taking a break from blogging since its getting so repetitive. maybe go for a period of time without typing anything and then update once in a while to tell people that i'm still around and that army is still killing my social life and causing intense mental trauma to me.

3 more weeks of jurong island. ENDURE!


1:51 AM

Monday, July 28, 2008

I realized that at the rate I'm splashing money, my dad's so gonna writhe and seethe in some indescribable form of anger that I shudder to even think about.

actually I don't know why it got so crazy. everything started from the lost-wallet incident and till now, i still don't have a new wallet ***hint hint***

my 11B's still not here yet. stupid S1 branch back at camp screwed up my application and its entirely their fault. I submitted all the relevant documents and even made some wasted trip down to CMPB to pay when I could have paid online. what a great waste of time, i thought

been lazy to get down to SAFRA to re-apply for a new SAFRA card as well even though its like in Yishun only. maybe in subsequent weeks when I head down for a swim with Kimyew & Zhemin.
(eh, i know you guys are reading this, so when are we going man?!)

new passport is ready and I couldn't make in on the appointed date to collect(screw deployment), so new appointment date's on 8th of AUG(yeah yeah, eve of public holiday, a lot of people). I have a new biometric passport and the photo makes me look like a a hitman from the MAFIA.. much ado over nothing.

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not a very productive weekend, did manage to catch Hellboy2. was an okay movie because after watching Dark Knight, you realise that nothing would ever match up to that. that show just managed to secure top spot in my mind. but woah, I liked Prince Nuada's weapon of choice and the flair in which he wielded it. the actor didn't portray Nuada's villainous nature that all well though I think. but still a fricking cool character. especially his backflips. hahaha

celebrated Roy's birthday on the 26th as well. Our man got a half jerry can drinkup over at Jurong Island after duty. whole bunch of us restrained him and then proceeded to give him a Father's Day gift at some lamppost. it looked painful and if doing that to someone makes you crinch already, being the recipient of it must really suck. and to make it worse, We got hold of a full jerry can(thats 20 litres) and proceeded to empty it over poor Roy who was drenched and freezing on the bus back to camp. WAHAHAHAHA.

the night out at Boat Quay drinking was fun, but it hurt my body till no end. great thanks to Vig, Justin, Lt. Fadhil and PS Anuar for coming down. Roy was a happy boy. I still feel like a walking can of trash inside. I feel my six packs losing their shape already, ahhhhhh. must DETOX.

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another week of deployment at jurong island would commence. same old shite again, 6 week os deployment hell to go through, how much can one's mind and body take, i wonder.
hahaha


10:12 AM

Monday, July 21, 2008

I was at ICA building getting my new biometric passport done in the morning and you know how we all hate these formal queue-up and filling-up-forms processes. what a chore

but at least that bit's done for now. no more passport or identification issues. new 11B would be coming next week as well. I feel complete once again after the whole wallet issue.

now only the Citibank clear card's on my wish list. and I don't want no supplementary card from my sis, aunt or dad because that just wouldn't be me. I have backbone, i apply for my own cards and I spend within my own means. When poverty strikes, I take responsibility for my own actions. very regrettable sometimes.

I still need a new wallet though.

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am settling into deployment routine. mass gainer powder's working well and worth every bit the money. duty's still shit as ever, but we are complaining about everything and would continue to do so forever and always.

having irregular bookouts suck. everyone else isn't free and think of it, who's free to hang out, kick back and laze around on a monday afternoon/evening?!
SHEESH-

managed to catch The Dark Knight with the army boys. Marcus the pussy was spooked and our row of seats kept rocking whenever the Joker sprang a surprise move. dumb bitch, I almost flung my popcorn. good movie, every bit as good as it was hyped up to be. easily my movie of the year provided nothing comes out and kicks it off that pedestal. trash IRON MAN. haha

shandy tan the bestie would be due home soon. world's quiet when she stops talking and thats bad cos her nonsense lights up my life significantly. oops, sorry jolly.

xyn's birthday coming up on the 22nd as well. she hates surprises, just like she has always did. but at least now we are talking after like so long. so thank you.
no, i knew you've never forgiven me. and the time to making amendments would never dawn upon either of us. but i'm just... satisfied that you. and I. have new lives.

thank you, God


11:32 PM

Wednesday, July 16, 2008

back to jurong island for us. conditions there are horrible, as if they took a turn for the worse in the time that we weren't there.

most of us booked out afflicted with conditions like conjunctivitis, wheezing coughs, asthma attacks, foot-rot, hand-rot and other physical ailments. i booked out half-blind with a really bad eye. was spared the rot though, thank the heavens

the bunks are in bad shape. imagine ammonia, sweat, gunk, dust and dirt in a 20 man bunk. unholy amalgamation, really. and oh, did i mention that its air-conditioned? makes it hell lot worse.

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working towards replacing everything in my wallet. been around the whole island doing my cards and other admin stuff. i don't happen to have a lot of money to spend either. so its bit by bit

I still don't have a wallet. am currently using the old LV one that looks like its falling apart anytime soon. when i open it, i get a heart attack because something might fall out.

so friends all around, it would be nice to contribute to the GET-CEDRIC-A-NEW-WALLET-FUND.
please donate generously. all proceeds would go towards helping a pathetic lowlife who would shamelessly beg for alms online. hahaha
but hey, very much appreciated lah.


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